Sad Elation, Thend's Beginning
~ Realization ... ~
I think i've just confirmed certain things...
feelings kepy inside a person, if are strong...
will lead to self detrimentation.
But what are the causes of that self non disclosure...
Pride..? THe unwillingness to discard that feeling of
injustice done...? The hurt sense of self... not wanting
to do anything... wanting to close up. hmmm.
ANyway that first step is hard...
But after that step ... which is to talk of smile or laugh..
everything seems easier... also... a look at issues of the
world around... a browsing of the papers helps to ease
one's self downward spiralling thoughts..
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
~ The Demented side unleashed ~
Queer it is the mind that's yours.
Though through all the changes that seems unchanged.
Thinking that it's been a while
And change is done quite abit.
Why do i see from others the need to compel,
Do we feel the happyiness when we see another sad.
Do we take pleasure in another's pain.
Or is it but an imagination of the mind.
Fuck the mind and all it's thoughts.
Many times still too tightly reigned in by the heart.
Even logic seems illogical and so many words
are then left unspoken.
What use it is if one is among friends or crowds,
when deep down he's still cut off.
Though on the surface it seems ok,
through the worlds eyes it's aliright.
But deep down it is not,
the crying the thrashing is but covered.
Sometimes it might surface
unleashing it's fury to those around.
It doesn't ever go away until it's
been confronted and treated at the core of the issue.
Queer it is the mind that's yours.
Though through all the changes that seems unchanged.
Thinking that it's been a while
And change is done quite abit.
Why do i see from others the need to compel,
Do we feel the happyiness when we see another sad.
Do we take pleasure in another's pain.
Or is it but an imagination of the mind.
Fuck the mind and all it's thoughts.
Many times still too tightly reigned in by the heart.
Even logic seems illogical and so many words
are then left unspoken.
What use it is if one is among friends or crowds,
when deep down he's still cut off.
Though on the surface it seems ok,
through the worlds eyes it's aliright.
But deep down it is not,
the crying the thrashing is but covered.
Sometimes it might surface
unleashing it's fury to those around.
It doesn't ever go away until it's
been confronted and treated at the core of the issue.
~ Ah... Finally ... Comments ~
Yup, comments are up... finally i think. Anyway got this service from
Haloscan, seem good. Anyway can try out, just click on that comments link
at the bottom. Ya.. the one before the trackback thingy. :)
Now all that's left is my links.. hmm.
Will get to it when there's time.. maybe tonight.
Sigh... exams next week and i still haven't started reading for them yet.
At least only for my GE and Eng and Society. Hope i can be able to rush through
them coming end of week.
Oh ya... in this period of stress and maybe urgency... think it's best not to
ever rely on one's feelings... seems like they are being rewired differenly these days.
Perhaps i'm falling victim to it, damn it feels cranky. Guess maybe it's better to
be alone. Where you won't be able to sense other's attitudes too easily..
Yup, comments are up... finally i think. Anyway got this service from
Haloscan, seem good. Anyway can try out, just click on that comments link
at the bottom. Ya.. the one before the trackback thingy. :)
Now all that's left is my links.. hmm.
Will get to it when there's time.. maybe tonight.
Sigh... exams next week and i still haven't started reading for them yet.
At least only for my GE and Eng and Society. Hope i can be able to rush through
them coming end of week.
Oh ya... in this period of stress and maybe urgency... think it's best not to
ever rely on one's feelings... seems like they are being rewired differenly these days.
Perhaps i'm falling victim to it, damn it feels cranky. Guess maybe it's better to
be alone. Where you won't be able to sense other's attitudes too easily..
Thursday, October 21, 2004
~ Freekin Blogspot no backups... ~
Just great, managed to get back my layouts. Sighz.
All i wanted to do was just add an extra link in my column and
blogspot has to crash on me.
Now i've gotta try to find back the code for the tagboard
and stuff... sighz...
Also just when my counter was about to hit 1000.. this has
to happen... and i was gonna celebrate it too
hahah..
oh well.. maybe i'll immigrate over to tripod... hmmm.
you hear that blogspot??! you hear that?!
i'm going over to your competitior! Stop me if u can!
I could be stopped if you gave me my own webspace to
upload stuff and my own webpage designs... 10mb of space
should be enough... :)
Just great, managed to get back my layouts. Sighz.
All i wanted to do was just add an extra link in my column and
blogspot has to crash on me.
Now i've gotta try to find back the code for the tagboard
and stuff... sighz...
Also just when my counter was about to hit 1000.. this has
to happen... and i was gonna celebrate it too
hahah..
oh well.. maybe i'll immigrate over to tripod... hmmm.
you hear that blogspot??! you hear that?!
i'm going over to your competitior! Stop me if u can!
I could be stopped if you gave me my own webspace to
upload stuff and my own webpage designs... 10mb of space
should be enough... :)
Monday, October 18, 2004
~ Shhh, it's all so quiet ~
Wonder why
seems like they all don't care,
But nothing's wrong,
It's all in the way.
The way of the world,
no one looks at your behind,
They only show to what you see,
Why should they anyway.
Yet do we seek,
Just to find,
Someone of purity,
To be sure of how we feel?
It's gotta quiet,
Busying our own stuff,
Feeling the uneasiness,
But accepting it now.
What you seek is but a dream,
Of things found only God could give.
Or a mate who might see you through...
Wonder why
seems like they all don't care,
But nothing's wrong,
It's all in the way.
The way of the world,
no one looks at your behind,
They only show to what you see,
Why should they anyway.
Yet do we seek,
Just to find,
Someone of purity,
To be sure of how we feel?
It's gotta quiet,
Busying our own stuff,
Feeling the uneasiness,
But accepting it now.
What you seek is but a dream,
Of things found only God could give.
Or a mate who might see you through...
Thursday, October 14, 2004
~ So another one bites the dust ~
Ah... finished my presentation today.
Well at least another thing over and i can slowly gear myself to studying
for the exams.
Anyway there were quite a alot of interesting topics on show today.
From finding your soulmate to cohabitation to homosexual and internet relationships.
Basically, all to do with relationships ( as is what this GE is supposed to be ).
Let's see, there's three topics so far... think there's 5 more, as there's 8 groups.
My group was on Office Romance and there's this interesting link to some flash
on it. Rather funny and cute :)
Oh yah, there's also one on " Is sex confined to related relationships " and another
on Metrosexual man. And lastly it was yt's grp on Family Ties.
Think the last group had lots of practical solutions and ideas. Good to implement in
one's own family i think. Anyway yt, if you're reading this, dun mind can post up your
power pt slide or the TIPs page where you listed all the things to do one? Heh.
Ok... that's it... Oh ya.. heard the BIG 4 came to NTU today... no wonder there were
so many office ladies look a like walking around.. haha.. eye feast :p
Well what's interesting was that i heard they were going to recruit in about 60-70%
of this yr's cohort so if the NBS students manage to get themselves hooked up today,
they'll get a job right after they grad with a starting pay of about 1600 take home.
Cool eh.
Sighz.. wonder when they'll have such a recruitment for ENG students... heh..
don't mind if they do so for Computer Eng... woo. imagine, IBM, APPLE, INTEL or ATI
coming to our school to recruit one day... haha... that'll say alot.
Guess i'll just stick to becoming an air steward or a pilot when i come out next time.
Maybe even just some helper in Sim Lim Square helping ppl fix computers.. haha.....
haiz...
Ah... finished my presentation today.
Well at least another thing over and i can slowly gear myself to studying
for the exams.
Anyway there were quite a alot of interesting topics on show today.
From finding your soulmate to cohabitation to homosexual and internet relationships.
Basically, all to do with relationships ( as is what this GE is supposed to be ).
Let's see, there's three topics so far... think there's 5 more, as there's 8 groups.
My group was on Office Romance and there's this interesting link to some flash
on it. Rather funny and cute :)
Oh yah, there's also one on " Is sex confined to related relationships " and another
on Metrosexual man. And lastly it was yt's grp on Family Ties.
Think the last group had lots of practical solutions and ideas. Good to implement in
one's own family i think. Anyway yt, if you're reading this, dun mind can post up your
power pt slide or the TIPs page where you listed all the things to do one? Heh.
Ok... that's it... Oh ya.. heard the BIG 4 came to NTU today... no wonder there were
so many office ladies look a like walking around.. haha.. eye feast :p
Well what's interesting was that i heard they were going to recruit in about 60-70%
of this yr's cohort so if the NBS students manage to get themselves hooked up today,
they'll get a job right after they grad with a starting pay of about 1600 take home.
Cool eh.
Sighz.. wonder when they'll have such a recruitment for ENG students... heh..
don't mind if they do so for Computer Eng... woo. imagine, IBM, APPLE, INTEL or ATI
coming to our school to recruit one day... haha... that'll say alot.
Guess i'll just stick to becoming an air steward or a pilot when i come out next time.
Maybe even just some helper in Sim Lim Square helping ppl fix computers.. haha.....
haiz...
Monday, October 11, 2004
~ And so it's .... almost done ~
Deadlines have come and most are gone. Finished up most of the stuff and
now just clearing the remnents of the calculator designs.... still have to do report.
Sigh.
Well, time for a break i say... well fuck you a voice says. Exams are near.
Ohh... i say. So? .... *silence*
Hmm.... oh well... back to trying to mug. But mostly i guess i'm just trying
to search out the voice. Hahaha... :p
And so the ghost of my mind,
resides and plays in my thoughts,
Telling of many things to make one green,
Plucking on the tender threads of emotion.
Whether tis real or but a shadow,
I do not know
til i speak out
And try out what's real.
Sometimes a fear,
Holds back an oncoming query,
That can break the ice of two,
But that fear wins anyway.
Perhaps perhaps,
If i could climb above myself,
to see the great beyond,
Living in the real and now,
Not lost in the shadowy what if's.
Deadlines have come and most are gone. Finished up most of the stuff and
now just clearing the remnents of the calculator designs.... still have to do report.
Sigh.
Well, time for a break i say... well fuck you a voice says. Exams are near.
Ohh... i say. So? .... *silence*
Hmm.... oh well... back to trying to mug. But mostly i guess i'm just trying
to search out the voice. Hahaha... :p
And so the ghost of my mind,
resides and plays in my thoughts,
Telling of many things to make one green,
Plucking on the tender threads of emotion.
Whether tis real or but a shadow,
I do not know
til i speak out
And try out what's real.
Sometimes a fear,
Holds back an oncoming query,
That can break the ice of two,
But that fear wins anyway.
Perhaps perhaps,
If i could climb above myself,
to see the great beyond,
Living in the real and now,
Not lost in the shadowy what if's.
Friday, October 08, 2004
~ The month long week... ~
Seems like it'll never end, day after day, panicking and trying to finish labs and tuts.
Finally friday is here but yet the things aren't done yet. People are queuing up to book
lab sessions and it's like even in the morning there's a queue. Like queuing up for Hello
Kitty like that. Damn...
Anyway... it's a good thing to have panic... or i wouldn't have started on anything at all.
At least with the sense of urgency i managed to do some studying, tuts, labs and projcet.
Much more things that i usually get done within a week. Seems like stress is good in a way... but i'm getting burned out. Think only need sleep now...it's just so tempting right now... ahhh..
Anyway, been taking a course in Creative Relations For Life as a GE. Been a rather interesting
and informative module. Although it's lots of chatting and discussion and not much to do
with academic stuff. But it does alot for self thought. Dunno if it's doing more good or bad
though, for ppl ard me have always been saying not to think too much... haha...
maybe gotta couple thinking with actions so that it'll be more productive.
Well where was i, ah.. back to serious stuff. Ok, first off, from a religious teaching point of
view, i learnt that we were made for a purpose, made for a relationship. A relationship with God.
Now then, academically, even philosphers and teachings alike are saying that man cannot
live alone, without touch and relating to his environment.
Some may say, didn't Jungle Boy grew up without ever havnig contacts with human? Or
even Tarzan? Well it's just a story! But then, even then, they had contact and even some
sort of relation with the animals that took care of them or played with them. So in a sense,
it is true that we cannnot life alone without interacting with the environment no matter how
individualistic one can or may be.
Even in times of depression or feeling of insecurity when one needs and wants to be alone.
What is it that one is going through during such times? What does one really think about?
Doesn't one acutually seek and hope that someone will come to save them. To bring them out
of the isolation they created themselves? Or when in sadness, actually wish to relate to, to
lash out at the person of interest?
In a sense, it really seems that no matter what the goal of our life is, there's no escaping the
fact that we're not really living for ourselves at all and we can not find our true meaning unless
we've learn how to think beyond ourselves and live for a purpose beyond ourselves.
How some people find power in the goal of seeking to become powerful or to seek fame and
recognition. It's a strong drive to live for themselves and to prove their worth, a determined
mind that doesn't seek to back down. Yet behind that drive, to prove one's own worth and value
in the world... is it not to seek the approval of others? Maybe a means to a goal to an inner desire to be able to relate to another human?
It is a way that's approved by the world. It makes people work hard. Keep things going and keeps things fair...
But then, in Christianity, it is taught that God has forgiven us, given us a new life in him and
showed grace that doesn't require anything in return... Teaches that no amount of effort we
put in to saving ourself or to show our own worth will ever amount to anything. That salvation
is about grace given to us and not something we can earn...
So what does it have to do with relations in humans...? Well besides the fact that we were
MADE for having relationship with God, which in very essence coincides with what academics
believe in. Thus, won't it be that in our own lives, we'll never feel complete til we manage to
be able to relate to another person, society or spiritually in a deeper sense...?
Haha... well... it's seems that my undestanding as of now is still inadequate as the words that
seemed to formed in the mind are starting to dissipate and flow into mambo jambo. Many things
seem to be easier thought of in the mind then expressed out in words. Then again, perhaps it's
the lack of proper understanding that's why it is so...
Whatever it is... seems like i've writen quite alot this round... wonder if anyone will understand
this time... haha.
Seems like it'll never end, day after day, panicking and trying to finish labs and tuts.
Finally friday is here but yet the things aren't done yet. People are queuing up to book
lab sessions and it's like even in the morning there's a queue. Like queuing up for Hello
Kitty like that. Damn...
Anyway... it's a good thing to have panic... or i wouldn't have started on anything at all.
At least with the sense of urgency i managed to do some studying, tuts, labs and projcet.
Much more things that i usually get done within a week. Seems like stress is good in a way... but i'm getting burned out. Think only need sleep now...it's just so tempting right now... ahhh..
Anyway, been taking a course in Creative Relations For Life as a GE. Been a rather interesting
and informative module. Although it's lots of chatting and discussion and not much to do
with academic stuff. But it does alot for self thought. Dunno if it's doing more good or bad
though, for ppl ard me have always been saying not to think too much... haha...
maybe gotta couple thinking with actions so that it'll be more productive.
Well where was i, ah.. back to serious stuff. Ok, first off, from a religious teaching point of
view, i learnt that we were made for a purpose, made for a relationship. A relationship with God.
Now then, academically, even philosphers and teachings alike are saying that man cannot
live alone, without touch and relating to his environment.
Some may say, didn't Jungle Boy grew up without ever havnig contacts with human? Or
even Tarzan? Well it's just a story! But then, even then, they had contact and even some
sort of relation with the animals that took care of them or played with them. So in a sense,
it is true that we cannnot life alone without interacting with the environment no matter how
individualistic one can or may be.
Even in times of depression or feeling of insecurity when one needs and wants to be alone.
What is it that one is going through during such times? What does one really think about?
Doesn't one acutually seek and hope that someone will come to save them. To bring them out
of the isolation they created themselves? Or when in sadness, actually wish to relate to, to
lash out at the person of interest?
In a sense, it really seems that no matter what the goal of our life is, there's no escaping the
fact that we're not really living for ourselves at all and we can not find our true meaning unless
we've learn how to think beyond ourselves and live for a purpose beyond ourselves.
How some people find power in the goal of seeking to become powerful or to seek fame and
recognition. It's a strong drive to live for themselves and to prove their worth, a determined
mind that doesn't seek to back down. Yet behind that drive, to prove one's own worth and value
in the world... is it not to seek the approval of others? Maybe a means to a goal to an inner desire to be able to relate to another human?
It is a way that's approved by the world. It makes people work hard. Keep things going and keeps things fair...
But then, in Christianity, it is taught that God has forgiven us, given us a new life in him and
showed grace that doesn't require anything in return... Teaches that no amount of effort we
put in to saving ourself or to show our own worth will ever amount to anything. That salvation
is about grace given to us and not something we can earn...
So what does it have to do with relations in humans...? Well besides the fact that we were
MADE for having relationship with God, which in very essence coincides with what academics
believe in. Thus, won't it be that in our own lives, we'll never feel complete til we manage to
be able to relate to another person, society or spiritually in a deeper sense...?
Haha... well... it's seems that my undestanding as of now is still inadequate as the words that
seemed to formed in the mind are starting to dissipate and flow into mambo jambo. Many things
seem to be easier thought of in the mind then expressed out in words. Then again, perhaps it's
the lack of proper understanding that's why it is so...
Whatever it is... seems like i've writen quite alot this round... wonder if anyone will understand
this time... haha.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
~ Whinings ~
Moaning of childhood desires,
Is but a fragment of what we desire now,
A basis non the less,
Fueling our lost passions.
What we strive for now,
What we write right now,
What we know is true now,
Only but circumstance driven in part.
Admire thee one who writes,
Writes of the heart's true words and desires,
Knowing no fear nor restriction,
In this chained up culture we've formed.
Seeking only to know,
Seeking only to hear,
Seeking only to speak,
Of one's lost words.
Formed in the depths of the mind,
Deep within the night,
When the soul roams among the darkness,
Is lost among passion in deep slumber.
Awaking to loud ringing,
Not one not two but three.
Deeply exhausted and startled.
Only able to speak in riddles,
that might hide yet tell of the truth.
Moaning of childhood desires,
Is but a fragment of what we desire now,
A basis non the less,
Fueling our lost passions.
What we strive for now,
What we write right now,
What we know is true now,
Only but circumstance driven in part.
Admire thee one who writes,
Writes of the heart's true words and desires,
Knowing no fear nor restriction,
In this chained up culture we've formed.
Seeking only to know,
Seeking only to hear,
Seeking only to speak,
Of one's lost words.
Formed in the depths of the mind,
Deep within the night,
When the soul roams among the darkness,
Is lost among passion in deep slumber.
Awaking to loud ringing,
Not one not two but three.
Deeply exhausted and startled.
Only able to speak in riddles,
that might hide yet tell of the truth.
Saturday, October 02, 2004
~ The Explaination ... ? ~
A friend sent me something rather interesting, remembered reading it in the past,
but guess it didn't really made an impression. But now it seems to have certain meaning...
hmm anyway here it is...
"...they call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.... "
Guess it does explain certain things... things that i'm going thru and others too... seems like
we're not alone out there... hmmm.
Oh well.... anyone has schmatics of registers or a calculator design? haiz...
A friend sent me something rather interesting, remembered reading it in the past,
but guess it didn't really made an impression. But now it seems to have certain meaning...
hmm anyway here it is...
"...they call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.... "
Guess it does explain certain things... things that i'm going thru and others too... seems like
we're not alone out there... hmmm.
Oh well.... anyone has schmatics of registers or a calculator design? haiz...
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
~ Reason? ~
Seems like i've changed. Yet again i haven't, maybe only reverting back to my old self.
There were things i've learnt in the army that made me see things clearer and knew how
to cherish, how i miss those things. I try to want it back but yet it seems like it's not
within my understanding anymore. Perhaps i've to take a journey to once again regain it...
Or perhaps it's just an unstable soul that lack security.
Things are much more complicated outside in the world as they say, how true it is after i've
left the army. Had lots of opportunities and experiences. Got hurt and burnt once, twice...
Perhaps that's why i've changed... to be more wary, guarded... to know that trust is given
easily... but hard to mend. To know to mingle the ways of society, yet not completely given
into it... always a step back to have a clearer view...
I still seek the same things as i did then, in the past, even when young. Yet somehow things
are different now. I wonder why. A friend perhaps feels that i've left him or let him down.
Seems like our past is important..... which reminded me of how much i used to treasure
memories and experiences...
Yet people do leave, people do change. So wat can we do..? Just make best use of the moment
i guess. Enjoy it while it lasts... for you never know how long you can stay happy and smiling.
We change, our focus change... yet we might still desire the same things as before.
Yet somehow things are differnt. Opinions are formed and actions seems not to work anymore.
The soul gets distant too. Then again... perhaps there never was anything real
to start with, for one who never really opens up. Then again, perhaps this dog hasn't changed
at all...
Seems like i've changed. Yet again i haven't, maybe only reverting back to my old self.
There were things i've learnt in the army that made me see things clearer and knew how
to cherish, how i miss those things. I try to want it back but yet it seems like it's not
within my understanding anymore. Perhaps i've to take a journey to once again regain it...
Or perhaps it's just an unstable soul that lack security.
Things are much more complicated outside in the world as they say, how true it is after i've
left the army. Had lots of opportunities and experiences. Got hurt and burnt once, twice...
Perhaps that's why i've changed... to be more wary, guarded... to know that trust is given
easily... but hard to mend. To know to mingle the ways of society, yet not completely given
into it... always a step back to have a clearer view...
I still seek the same things as i did then, in the past, even when young. Yet somehow things
are different now. I wonder why. A friend perhaps feels that i've left him or let him down.
Seems like our past is important..... which reminded me of how much i used to treasure
memories and experiences...
Yet people do leave, people do change. So wat can we do..? Just make best use of the moment
i guess. Enjoy it while it lasts... for you never know how long you can stay happy and smiling.
We change, our focus change... yet we might still desire the same things as before.
Yet somehow things are differnt. Opinions are formed and actions seems not to work anymore.
The soul gets distant too. Then again... perhaps there never was anything real
to start with, for one who never really opens up. Then again, perhaps this dog hasn't changed
at all...
Monday, September 27, 2004
~ The Reason...? ~
It's been days since i've written. Been busy abit. Stressed out for awhile.
Shocked with panic, at being so lost at my studies. Even though i thought that i
understood. Turned out i really knew so little about it. Was so worried about
missing lectures that i really didn't want to go for the Nokia training course on friday.
But i think i gained more instead, even though it's much more tiring.
Learned about the different software series each of the Nokia phones had and had some
lessons of how to program for the symbian series 60 platform. However it's still a little
overwhelming.
Then saturday came, and i went for my first experience of a model shoot. Went to assist this
guy Justin, with his shoot to build up his own portfolio and there were like 5 people on the set.
the photographer, stylist, makeup artist, model and me. :)
Took a mental note of how the photographer and stylist, made little style changes with every shot,
and how they wanted to frame it and compose it. Also got to play with the studio lights , man those
are powerful stuff, could blind a person if you looked at it while the flash goes off. Even the spot lights
are very glaring. Think they come in a package of 2k plus, which includes 2 lights, tripods, reflectors
and casing. Damn ex man.
At least i think now i'm more confident of doing my own shoots if asked to, cos more sure of what to do
and stuff. Quite fun actually. :)
Ok ... just crapping my experiences here, now gotta go back to doing labs... wonder when i'll ever
finish... haiz.
So.... what is the Reason..? haha... maybe next time.
It's been days since i've written. Been busy abit. Stressed out for awhile.
Shocked with panic, at being so lost at my studies. Even though i thought that i
understood. Turned out i really knew so little about it. Was so worried about
missing lectures that i really didn't want to go for the Nokia training course on friday.
But i think i gained more instead, even though it's much more tiring.
Learned about the different software series each of the Nokia phones had and had some
lessons of how to program for the symbian series 60 platform. However it's still a little
overwhelming.
Then saturday came, and i went for my first experience of a model shoot. Went to assist this
guy Justin, with his shoot to build up his own portfolio and there were like 5 people on the set.
the photographer, stylist, makeup artist, model and me. :)
Took a mental note of how the photographer and stylist, made little style changes with every shot,
and how they wanted to frame it and compose it. Also got to play with the studio lights , man those
are powerful stuff, could blind a person if you looked at it while the flash goes off. Even the spot lights
are very glaring. Think they come in a package of 2k plus, which includes 2 lights, tripods, reflectors
and casing. Damn ex man.
At least i think now i'm more confident of doing my own shoots if asked to, cos more sure of what to do
and stuff. Quite fun actually. :)
Ok ... just crapping my experiences here, now gotta go back to doing labs... wonder when i'll ever
finish... haiz.
So.... what is the Reason..? haha... maybe next time.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
~ Digital Painting? ~
Well... didn't really do much today... read finish a book i've been wanting to read,
then spent most of it painting. Yup painting.
Wasn't messy and didn't require me to constantly input water and curses.
Yes curses when you suddenly made a mistake and can't remedy it.
Lucky i've gone digital. Yeah.
Been inspired by those fans whose works are just digital colouring of manga
translated scans. Here's one which i find rather cool. Click here to see it.
If you've wondering why i can't show it here instead... well i can't seem to find
any hosting site for images that'll just allow me to get the picture from there.
And tripod and geocities don't allow me to do that, so i'm just going around it by
creating links to them, hope it works.
Anyway i've tried my hand at coloring one manga section and it took me ...
7 hrs?!.. woo. Now that i've counted it.. seems like i wasted away quite alot of time.
haha. But well.. it's worth it i guess. Learnt some new photoshop techniques while
doing the 'painting'. Anyway here's the original pic. And here's the edited one.
Somehow still not on par with those professionals. But it's a start and i'm kinda proud
of it :). Anyway ... back to datapaths and wat nots... argh...
Well... didn't really do much today... read finish a book i've been wanting to read,
then spent most of it painting. Yup painting.
Wasn't messy and didn't require me to constantly input water and curses.
Yes curses when you suddenly made a mistake and can't remedy it.
Lucky i've gone digital. Yeah.
Been inspired by those fans whose works are just digital colouring of manga
translated scans. Here's one which i find rather cool. Click here to see it.
If you've wondering why i can't show it here instead... well i can't seem to find
any hosting site for images that'll just allow me to get the picture from there.
And tripod and geocities don't allow me to do that, so i'm just going around it by
creating links to them, hope it works.
Anyway i've tried my hand at coloring one manga section and it took me ...
7 hrs?!.. woo. Now that i've counted it.. seems like i wasted away quite alot of time.
haha. But well.. it's worth it i guess. Learnt some new photoshop techniques while
doing the 'painting'. Anyway here's the original pic. And here's the edited one.
Somehow still not on par with those professionals. But it's a start and i'm kinda proud
of it :). Anyway ... back to datapaths and wat nots... argh...
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
*~ First steps to resting ~*
First off... in reply to wat weixian said... i ain't having no split personality.
No i am not! ... Noooo.... Ye... Yess..... Yes! I've taken over! Muahahah,
the other me is now out! Yeah! I'm FREEEEEE!!!
Ok... that's just a pathetic and over dramatic attempt... haha.
Anyway, maybe you're right mr weige, maybe you are.
But then again don't we always have an inner voice within us to
talk to? Like another personality that we go to to talk things out.
Maybe schizos become that way when the other voice gets too loud,
when the councious self becomes too weak and shaken and needs to withdraw.
Maybe that's when spilt personailities come about...
Anyway i'm officially into the end of the 2nd day of the week break.
Time is going fast, yet i'm glad i'm able to enjoy this time of quiet to
do my own reading and to watch some shows.
Just watched finish this show " Grave of the Firefiles ", had downloaded it
2 weeks back but never did have the time to go through it.
This show is set during the WW2 period and is about this guy and his sis,
how they went through the war and how it ended... It's a sad show, rather touching
and just somehow seemed real in a way. Although it's all drawn...
But I was thinking, this show was showing how the common people were suffering
because of the war, would Japanese people watching it think that it's the americans who
cause them to suffer like that? Hmmm...
However it seems like the author was trying to focus on how this sibling duo managed to
try and live their lives through out the war period. Perhaps it was due to some thing
the writer went through himself during the war or what... Maybe that's why as i watched..
you could somehow feel the emotions from the film, his strong emotions of being criticised
by other, of wanting to protect his only family...
Although the emotions were strong, they weren't over dramaticised, it was subtle and
done in a rather human like way, where u were just looking at the outer appreance of the
character rather then hearing his inner voice and thoughts as in other shows. In a way,
it causes us to imagine the plight of the characters instead... maybe that's why it feels more
real...
Anyway it's a good show although it doesn't have any flashy graphics as it was made quite
long ago, in 1988 i think. A classic i should say... :)
Alright... on to day 3 now... hope i can come up with the schematics of the calculator lab
i'm supposed to do..
Adieus.
First off... in reply to wat weixian said... i ain't having no split personality.
No i am not! ... Noooo.... Ye... Yess..... Yes! I've taken over! Muahahah,
the other me is now out! Yeah! I'm FREEEEEE!!!
Ok... that's just a pathetic and over dramatic attempt... haha.
Anyway, maybe you're right mr weige, maybe you are.
But then again don't we always have an inner voice within us to
talk to? Like another personality that we go to to talk things out.
Maybe schizos become that way when the other voice gets too loud,
when the councious self becomes too weak and shaken and needs to withdraw.
Maybe that's when spilt personailities come about...
Anyway i'm officially into the end of the 2nd day of the week break.
Time is going fast, yet i'm glad i'm able to enjoy this time of quiet to
do my own reading and to watch some shows.
Just watched finish this show " Grave of the Firefiles ", had downloaded it
2 weeks back but never did have the time to go through it.
This show is set during the WW2 period and is about this guy and his sis,
how they went through the war and how it ended... It's a sad show, rather touching
and just somehow seemed real in a way. Although it's all drawn...
But I was thinking, this show was showing how the common people were suffering
because of the war, would Japanese people watching it think that it's the americans who
cause them to suffer like that? Hmmm...
However it seems like the author was trying to focus on how this sibling duo managed to
try and live their lives through out the war period. Perhaps it was due to some thing
the writer went through himself during the war or what... Maybe that's why as i watched..
you could somehow feel the emotions from the film, his strong emotions of being criticised
by other, of wanting to protect his only family...
Although the emotions were strong, they weren't over dramaticised, it was subtle and
done in a rather human like way, where u were just looking at the outer appreance of the
character rather then hearing his inner voice and thoughts as in other shows. In a way,
it causes us to imagine the plight of the characters instead... maybe that's why it feels more
real...
Anyway it's a good show although it doesn't have any flashy graphics as it was made quite
long ago, in 1988 i think. A classic i should say... :)
Alright... on to day 3 now... hope i can come up with the schematics of the calculator lab
i'm supposed to do..
Adieus.
Saturday, September 11, 2004
~ Prelude to another break ~
Name: Adrian Lee
Age: 22
Occ: Student
Status: Residing in hall 4 of ntu.
Signed in.
:) Think it's a good way to start, considering how long it's been since i've
written anything here. Surprisingly it's been close to a month since this
has recieved any updates and i wonder how many people actually come to
visit. Even though i don't really say much too.
These past weeks... what has been of them...? Mostly daily rountines, go to
lec, go to lab, go to tut. Rush lab, rush tut. Try to understand lecturers, try to
understand notes. Time just seemed to rush by, and now i'm in the friday of the
week before my recess week.
Had lots to think about even though i was busy with work. But still will always
manage to cram in some gaming sessions with the guys on thurs and fridays.
Sigh.
Damn it's hard to type.
After such a long break it just seems so hard for words to come out, to flow.
It's like there's this pause in the mind.
At the back of my head, there's so many clouds... solitary clouds, storing their
own mixture of ideas, of chemical processes. Bumping around, bumping each other.
Never mixing with another to become bigger. Always maintaining their own shape and size.
Yet it's just so hard to ever put things down to words.
Have you ever had moments where you seemed to understand everything? Thought
that you were able to know what's really going on. Yet the next, lose hold of that vision,
and then start at 0, being lost yet knowing there's something more...
It's funny how this mind works.
Funnier how, it doesn't seem to be mine at times.
:)
*hopefully the woodbridge ppl dun see this.
Name: Adrian Lee
Age: 22
Occ: Student
Status: Residing in hall 4 of ntu.
Signed in.
:) Think it's a good way to start, considering how long it's been since i've
written anything here. Surprisingly it's been close to a month since this
has recieved any updates and i wonder how many people actually come to
visit. Even though i don't really say much too.
These past weeks... what has been of them...? Mostly daily rountines, go to
lec, go to lab, go to tut. Rush lab, rush tut. Try to understand lecturers, try to
understand notes. Time just seemed to rush by, and now i'm in the friday of the
week before my recess week.
Had lots to think about even though i was busy with work. But still will always
manage to cram in some gaming sessions with the guys on thurs and fridays.
Sigh.
Damn it's hard to type.
After such a long break it just seems so hard for words to come out, to flow.
It's like there's this pause in the mind.
At the back of my head, there's so many clouds... solitary clouds, storing their
own mixture of ideas, of chemical processes. Bumping around, bumping each other.
Never mixing with another to become bigger. Always maintaining their own shape and size.
Yet it's just so hard to ever put things down to words.
Have you ever had moments where you seemed to understand everything? Thought
that you were able to know what's really going on. Yet the next, lose hold of that vision,
and then start at 0, being lost yet knowing there's something more...
It's funny how this mind works.
Funnier how, it doesn't seem to be mine at times.
:)
*hopefully the woodbridge ppl dun see this.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
~ RALLY RALLY RALLY ~
Don't know how many people caught the national day rally last night.
Even though it lasted 3 hrs plus, I didn't really feel bored. In fact i was rather
interested in what PM Lee had to say next. Which is rather amazing considering
that i can't really last 1hr with my lecturers.
Must say that he's an engaging speaker and has touched on topics that
have been avoided in the past. Seems like a new start and lots of changes
to be implemented.
Then again, it could be the case of wanting to impress and to give people promises
when one takes over a new post. Also i was wondering, if the previous 2 PMs
hadn't been the ones to enforce certain policies and encouraged savings, would there
be anything there for the new PM to make use of to make changes? Guess it's just
good timing and all.
At least i can say he's made a good start. Hopefully his years in politics under the guidiance
of his father and pm goh would enable him to be a more efficient minister. After all,
he's quite people orientated so we can expect him to feel more for the people, but hopefully
he's also able to be firm enough to make proper decisions.
*.... lots to do, new hopes
how one man in the right position
can be able to change mindsets
and influence others.... *
Don't know how many people caught the national day rally last night.
Even though it lasted 3 hrs plus, I didn't really feel bored. In fact i was rather
interested in what PM Lee had to say next. Which is rather amazing considering
that i can't really last 1hr with my lecturers.
Must say that he's an engaging speaker and has touched on topics that
have been avoided in the past. Seems like a new start and lots of changes
to be implemented.
Then again, it could be the case of wanting to impress and to give people promises
when one takes over a new post. Also i was wondering, if the previous 2 PMs
hadn't been the ones to enforce certain policies and encouraged savings, would there
be anything there for the new PM to make use of to make changes? Guess it's just
good timing and all.
At least i can say he's made a good start. Hopefully his years in politics under the guidiance
of his father and pm goh would enable him to be a more efficient minister. After all,
he's quite people orientated so we can expect him to feel more for the people, but hopefully
he's also able to be firm enough to make proper decisions.
*.... lots to do, new hopes
how one man in the right position
can be able to change mindsets
and influence others.... *
Thursday, August 19, 2004
~ The procrastinating dawn ~
Bogged and tied down.
PHS is now known as NHS (NTU Home Stayer).
Living an enclosed life within a very large and hilly
enclosure. With it's own self supporting mart, canteens
and MAC.
6 Mods to clear this time round.
Slightly gappy timetable. 4 hr breaks.
Enough for a quick nap.
Lots of 1's and 0's. Even more K-maps, VEM, EVM
and MacQuinsly. AND, OR's and NOTs. Think very
soon i can see things like NEO.
Guess whats this is : $ 48 454C 4C4F (Hex)
Another way to rep: 01001000 0100010101001100 0100110001001111 (Bin)
In Ascii : H E L L O.
Amazing....
And i've got a lec who does such transformations on the fly.
No cals, no tables, no help.. no pause. She must be Trinity...
Having a GE this sem, first one so far.
Creative relations for life. So far quite intersting.
Discuss many things, confirmed things for me too.
Answered things i've been wondering about...
Sadly today, reminded of bonding.
Male bonding. Yes, it is rather strong.
Yet it's not something to bring around everywhere
into each part of life.
Only found during a certain time when all are gathered,
those who've gone through stuff together.
Can i ever be upgraded...
How funny now, in this stage, one is able to see
the growing process one has gone through, by
looking at others around.
When one does not hang his head down to see the
ants that much. He actually sees how many people
are the same. How many are going through their own
struggles...
Those sharks still haven't come, maybe they want to surprise us.
When can i move stuff back...?
Room kinda small now.
Mmmm still no time to upload pics...
hope to do that soon.
Hope to be able to get thru this sem smoothly...
Bogged and tied down.
PHS is now known as NHS (NTU Home Stayer).
Living an enclosed life within a very large and hilly
enclosure. With it's own self supporting mart, canteens
and MAC.
6 Mods to clear this time round.
Slightly gappy timetable. 4 hr breaks.
Enough for a quick nap.
Lots of 1's and 0's. Even more K-maps, VEM, EVM
and MacQuinsly. AND, OR's and NOTs. Think very
soon i can see things like NEO.
Guess whats this is : $ 48 454C 4C4F (Hex)
Another way to rep: 01001000 0100010101001100 0100110001001111 (Bin)
In Ascii : H E L L O.
Amazing....
And i've got a lec who does such transformations on the fly.
No cals, no tables, no help.. no pause. She must be Trinity...
Having a GE this sem, first one so far.
Creative relations for life. So far quite intersting.
Discuss many things, confirmed things for me too.
Answered things i've been wondering about...
Sadly today, reminded of bonding.
Male bonding. Yes, it is rather strong.
Yet it's not something to bring around everywhere
into each part of life.
Only found during a certain time when all are gathered,
those who've gone through stuff together.
Can i ever be upgraded...
How funny now, in this stage, one is able to see
the growing process one has gone through, by
looking at others around.
When one does not hang his head down to see the
ants that much. He actually sees how many people
are the same. How many are going through their own
struggles...
Those sharks still haven't come, maybe they want to surprise us.
When can i move stuff back...?
Room kinda small now.
Mmmm still no time to upload pics...
hope to do that soon.
Hope to be able to get thru this sem smoothly...
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
~ Been a while ~
It's been a while since i've tried to last pen down any words.
The past weeks of moving into hall and trying to get to a good start with
school has been rather trying.
Been sorting out stuff the past days, clearing and keeping. Hiding stuff
so them "badies" can't take'em away. Storing my memories and filing my
docs. Came across many things, things forgotten things that made me want
to do something.
Realised i haven't actually been doing any writing to anyone these past years,
and after going through all those stuff, felt the need to write. Write to those
who mattered and those who's lives i've been wanting to acknowledge...
Those stored feelings that were written on paper by pen, is far more powerful
then any sms or electronic mails or any other mediums that are digital. There's
a somewat magical and personal touch when one write or makes something for
another. Like putting a part of themselves into their creation.
How i've missed those times i've done so. Done so in those younger years.
Maybe as we grow older, we may mature, may grow, yet who said growth was
always progressive. Maybe the things that mattered most in our youths are the
things that are left behind and the most valuable. Does the big picture always matters?
Does the worlds views constantly need to be imposed on ourselves...
Now we're running, now we're hiding. Creditors have come this day.
Hope it'll pass and things settle soon. See a light behind this coming event.
Hope that it'll be the end, where money doesn't have to be so tightly held.
Where every cent always being reminded to save... while others around
treat things with so little care.
Perhaps it's time to go back to my tuts.
Another time perhaps, to show some fireworks. :)
It's been a while since i've tried to last pen down any words.
The past weeks of moving into hall and trying to get to a good start with
school has been rather trying.
Been sorting out stuff the past days, clearing and keeping. Hiding stuff
so them "badies" can't take'em away. Storing my memories and filing my
docs. Came across many things, things forgotten things that made me want
to do something.
Realised i haven't actually been doing any writing to anyone these past years,
and after going through all those stuff, felt the need to write. Write to those
who mattered and those who's lives i've been wanting to acknowledge...
Those stored feelings that were written on paper by pen, is far more powerful
then any sms or electronic mails or any other mediums that are digital. There's
a somewat magical and personal touch when one write or makes something for
another. Like putting a part of themselves into their creation.
How i've missed those times i've done so. Done so in those younger years.
Maybe as we grow older, we may mature, may grow, yet who said growth was
always progressive. Maybe the things that mattered most in our youths are the
things that are left behind and the most valuable. Does the big picture always matters?
Does the worlds views constantly need to be imposed on ourselves...
Now we're running, now we're hiding. Creditors have come this day.
Hope it'll pass and things settle soon. See a light behind this coming event.
Hope that it'll be the end, where money doesn't have to be so tightly held.
Where every cent always being reminded to save... while others around
treat things with so little care.
Perhaps it's time to go back to my tuts.
Another time perhaps, to show some fireworks. :)
Thursday, July 29, 2004
~ And so it begins ... ~
Gee, so fast and the last week of the hols has passed in the blink of the moment.
All the orientation camps have come to a close and what's left is lots of recuperation
for many.
Still don't feel like school is starting. Feels like it's the holidays still. Sigh, i feel like i felt
when i've just orded. Heh. What the heck. Back to square one. And so the cycle of mugging
continues once again, making the smart smarter and the lazy ones... skip lectures. :)
Monday, the new day of the week, got up early, felt excited... yeah. Gonna be going to school
from home. Doesn't seem that bad. Quite alright i should say... could get used to it, if i ain't
staying in the hall. Anyway, guess what. I was early for the lecture this sem. Not bad i should
say, but sad enough, the lecturer probably thought that it was still the holidays too. Or maybe
he just had a rough night with his wife the previous night. He came just 10 mins before the
lecture ended and just gave us a brief intro. That's so nice of him.. to still remember us,
when he could've just left us waiting and let us all rot or leave for home which we've just left
more then an hour plus ago...
Mmmm... MACs has finally arrived into NTU. Dunno why but it just feels good. Gives the
place something "fast", or maybe it's cos it's an MNC... giving the canteen an international feel?
I dun really care much about it cos no matter what, eating it everyday's gonna cost a bomb.
But it gives this air of excitement and i dunno colours up the place a little? Gives canteen A
a brighter feel i guess? Maybe the colours really do affect the human moods...
Books books... as usual, there's a book fair just outside the canteen. Lots of old books for sale.
Programming books... computer books... story books.. etc etc... why couldn't i find a good and
more updated java book for 9 bucks, like i did last sem? Hmm hope i'll find something to
reference myself to and make me feel more secured... haha.
Monday afternoon... lectures ended. Went to collect my hall keys. Asked Kk to go try asking
the hall office again if he had gotten a hall. Didn't know the 3rd round results were out...
Not bad, he got it. Guess what, we're in the same room again. haha, must be fated :) And there i
was, thinking in my head how i should start introing myself to my new roommate.
Mon nite, Tues evening, all spent cleaning up this new room. Not bad i should say. At least
there's 2 fans and the lights are brighter. However a certain problem seems to be the infestion
of mozzies... gonna have to get lots of mozzie coils. Damn... or maybe i should just get those
electronic types. Buzz away mozzies!
Gonna move in soon. yea... back to surfing the lan, back to late nights, back to mugging and
drowning. Back to climbing hills, back to communal living. Back to the ways i've left behind
3 months ago. Somehow i've missed it yet somehow i'm too lazy to go back into it. I wonder
why... has home grown on me already? Heh. I wonder....
Oh well.. gotta wake up early tom... gotta catch the early ride so i can move my stuff in,
looking forward to this new sem. Hope it's better... hope i get luck. :)
Gee, so fast and the last week of the hols has passed in the blink of the moment.
All the orientation camps have come to a close and what's left is lots of recuperation
for many.
Still don't feel like school is starting. Feels like it's the holidays still. Sigh, i feel like i felt
when i've just orded. Heh. What the heck. Back to square one. And so the cycle of mugging
continues once again, making the smart smarter and the lazy ones... skip lectures. :)
Monday, the new day of the week, got up early, felt excited... yeah. Gonna be going to school
from home. Doesn't seem that bad. Quite alright i should say... could get used to it, if i ain't
staying in the hall. Anyway, guess what. I was early for the lecture this sem. Not bad i should
say, but sad enough, the lecturer probably thought that it was still the holidays too. Or maybe
he just had a rough night with his wife the previous night. He came just 10 mins before the
lecture ended and just gave us a brief intro. That's so nice of him.. to still remember us,
when he could've just left us waiting and let us all rot or leave for home which we've just left
more then an hour plus ago...
Mmmm... MACs has finally arrived into NTU. Dunno why but it just feels good. Gives the
place something "fast", or maybe it's cos it's an MNC... giving the canteen an international feel?
I dun really care much about it cos no matter what, eating it everyday's gonna cost a bomb.
But it gives this air of excitement and i dunno colours up the place a little? Gives canteen A
a brighter feel i guess? Maybe the colours really do affect the human moods...
Books books... as usual, there's a book fair just outside the canteen. Lots of old books for sale.
Programming books... computer books... story books.. etc etc... why couldn't i find a good and
more updated java book for 9 bucks, like i did last sem? Hmm hope i'll find something to
reference myself to and make me feel more secured... haha.
Monday afternoon... lectures ended. Went to collect my hall keys. Asked Kk to go try asking
the hall office again if he had gotten a hall. Didn't know the 3rd round results were out...
Not bad, he got it. Guess what, we're in the same room again. haha, must be fated :) And there i
was, thinking in my head how i should start introing myself to my new roommate.
Mon nite, Tues evening, all spent cleaning up this new room. Not bad i should say. At least
there's 2 fans and the lights are brighter. However a certain problem seems to be the infestion
of mozzies... gonna have to get lots of mozzie coils. Damn... or maybe i should just get those
electronic types. Buzz away mozzies!
Gonna move in soon. yea... back to surfing the lan, back to late nights, back to mugging and
drowning. Back to climbing hills, back to communal living. Back to the ways i've left behind
3 months ago. Somehow i've missed it yet somehow i'm too lazy to go back into it. I wonder
why... has home grown on me already? Heh. I wonder....
Oh well.. gotta wake up early tom... gotta catch the early ride so i can move my stuff in,
looking forward to this new sem. Hope it's better... hope i get luck. :)
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
~ 7 days and 6 nights ~
Well finally back from the sports camp. It was a 7 days of self entertainment
and chalet time for me. Haha. Luckliy i had friends with me there doing
the welfare thing or else i would be so damn sian.
Watching people having fun was quite interesting at first, then the cheers sounded
rather funny. Then it got abit irritating... then it stuck in my head... and then i would
subconciously say it when we woke up to get breakfast in the mornings. Haha.. damn
stupid cheers. I think another 1 day or 2 days more and it should get out of my mind.
Well, one thing i've learnt, if you're looking to have fun, never join the supporting commitees of any camps. You'll only end up waiting and doing lots of sai kang. Not very nice if you're not getting enough rest too. :(
But anyway still had fun staying over at Chester's with jie and hz. Makes doing things together more fun and easier too. (Imagine waking up at 6 by yourself everyday while sleeping at 1-2am, don't think i could've woken up myself.. haha) Took turns driving "xiao lan", (our own ISUZU ELF 150 CUSTOM lorry, heh), shiok man, just love the feeling of driving big vehicles, think i've lost touch of cars already.
Anyway think this year's freshies seem a little more onz, they played and cheered so much longer that we had to wait for them to finish before we could leave on sun. Good for them but bad for us as we were like waiting and waiting only... hate that feeling. Esp when we're not playing along. :p
Was greeted with a spectacular sight while walking home yesterday over the senkang/punggol flyover. Saw the setting sun, with red wispy clouds, white blue and orangey skies blending together. Also cars with head lights already turned on. It was quite a sight, a real pity i didn't have my olympus...
Well finally back from the sports camp. It was a 7 days of self entertainment
and chalet time for me. Haha. Luckliy i had friends with me there doing
the welfare thing or else i would be so damn sian.
Watching people having fun was quite interesting at first, then the cheers sounded
rather funny. Then it got abit irritating... then it stuck in my head... and then i would
subconciously say it when we woke up to get breakfast in the mornings. Haha.. damn
stupid cheers. I think another 1 day or 2 days more and it should get out of my mind.
Well, one thing i've learnt, if you're looking to have fun, never join the supporting commitees of any camps. You'll only end up waiting and doing lots of sai kang. Not very nice if you're not getting enough rest too. :(
But anyway still had fun staying over at Chester's with jie and hz. Makes doing things together more fun and easier too. (Imagine waking up at 6 by yourself everyday while sleeping at 1-2am, don't think i could've woken up myself.. haha) Took turns driving "xiao lan", (our own ISUZU ELF 150 CUSTOM lorry, heh), shiok man, just love the feeling of driving big vehicles, think i've lost touch of cars already.
Anyway think this year's freshies seem a little more onz, they played and cheered so much longer that we had to wait for them to finish before we could leave on sun. Good for them but bad for us as we were like waiting and waiting only... hate that feeling. Esp when we're not playing along. :p
Was greeted with a spectacular sight while walking home yesterday over the senkang/punggol flyover. Saw the setting sun, with red wispy clouds, white blue and orangey skies blending together. Also cars with head lights already turned on. It was quite a sight, a real pity i didn't have my olympus...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)