Friday, March 25, 2005

~ Ponder wonder... ~

It werid but seems like revealations come at times when u least expect it.
Even when watching shows. But guess that's just the way things are these
days. Us all seeking our truths everywhere. Seeking to be filled with some
worldly wisdom or another.. i guess i shoud know better. Having been seeking
it for since i dunno how long.

Watching desperate housewives, I suddenly realised how people's perception of
life can differ so much. Not that i wasn't aware of it. But it just stuck me so deeply
in a way. That some can treat life so lightly... laughing away at issues and situations
that might otherwise seem so much more severe and serious to others.

Its no wonder why people misunderstand each other at times. Espicially when
you have people laughing at matters that you feel are important. Then how does
one respond...? Some rebutt in anger... some shrink away. Some have mastered the
art of keeping emotions at hold and come up with witty responses to otherwise very
crude remarks.

Also another thing i've noticed thus far... how much we'd like to hold on to things that
have given us hope in our otherwise dampened hearts. Seems like it'll always take some
external stimulus to kick us in our butts to wake us up from our daily drunkedness.
To make us aware that we still have other things to live for... other then self sustinence,
or self pleasure. A need to take away the things that matter to let us see that which really
matters. Things that are close to our hearts.

How many times it's been.. that we sometimes have friends... who are always so cock sure
of themselves, that we hate that cocky and know it all attitude. Of beliefs that they feel will
last them through. How many times usually we'll want to rebuke them. But then, what's the
point of wanting to change someone else's thought processes when it's something very much
internal.

We can't change a person's heart and beliefs until he/she has gone through some situation
that will make them realise certain facts. Maybe the only reason why we want to rebuke them
is to reassure ourselves of our own beliefs that mean so much to us. Meaning we're still insecure
and unsure. Like a little child wanting to be heard.

But the time will come ... when things change and God will put burdens in our hearts.
To realise the err of our ways. That pride, ego, fears, hurts and the such don't mean anything.
To realise a certain desire to grow. To bring ourselves out to be challenged and to just try.
To know that nothing's perfect and that there's no mistake big enough that cannot be rectified.
That forgiveness comes from within the heart... not in the words said.

Ponder wonder... tis a Good friday. A time to rest. And a chance to scribble...
A chance too, to remember Christ's death... and in 3 days time his ressurection.
To remember that we're all saved by grace and that being so, we shouldn't be so harsh
to anyone in our lives.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

~ Pictures of surroundings ~

Shots that i took that seemed nice...
too bad i only had my cam phone.
So the quality is quite bad.


But anyway, this here was found at N4 of North Spine,
i was walking past to my labs when i saw a tree so pink.
Kinda reminded me of how sakuras in japan might look like.
It really does add color to the surrounding.


Then just behind it is a tree is white bloom. From the picture
you can't see it clearly, but it's actually very white and it
really contrasts the pink tree that's in front of it.


This here was taken during the vertical marathorn
'dry-run'. At the 51st storey of Temasek Towers.
Went up and managed to get quite a good
view of the surroundings. Think that's Keppel Harbour
in the pic.


Another view of the port/harbour. More to the right.


This here is taken facing the city, China town is just
to the left of this picture.


This picture was during the actually day of
vert mag itself. We had to stay over at the tower
and just before dawn. I managed to get a good
view of the horizon from the top.


Must say it's rather beautiful and the pictures
here can't do it any justice. But hope it gives
the idea.

~CARS!!!! :)
Below are some of my stalks out of cars.
They all look much better when u see them
up close. Don't know why they just don't turn
out well here. heh.


RX 7, Found at the NBS carpark. Veri low and
small in size compared to the other cars parked
around it.


The interior view. Doubt you can see much from
here. But the seats are red and the steering wheel
looks quite cool to hold.


Mazda Rx8 - Found at Carpark in CAN a.
White/Grey. Could only get the back shot.
As taking from the front was too dark.


RX8- Found at NBS carpark. This i must say
looks real good. If only i could get my hands on
to the steering wheels and take it for a spin.


The rear view of the Black RX8, notice that
it's car plate is 8888. Now how's that for
an auspicious number. Must be some rich kid
or maybe even a lecturer holding the keys
to this baby.


BMW MX3, sports convertible. one of the cooler
cars i've seen so far. Saw at DDB design company
where i went to do a survey.


The front view.... looks nice right. :)
I really like it's big 'nostirls'. Haha.

Monday, March 14, 2005

~ Thought Processes ~

1) Certain Images or places triggers off certain thought processes within us.
2) It may remind us of the past, and it can also trigger off emotions within us.
3) We may remember things that we've long forgotten.
4) Our mind has 4 states, and one state is our sub consciousness.

In the sub conscious state, we don't know what we know, there're things that
we've learnt and know that is just lying dormant in our minds.
Sometimes images and events can trigger off the thoughts that are swimming
in our sub consciousness. Skills, memories, knowledge... etc.
Now then... what if we were able to have a large library of collected images,
events and sounds... and able to project it in to the mind..., out of all those things
that will be rushing past our senses. Would it eventually awake something in us?
I wonder.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

~ Been so long ~

So long, so long. This has been empty for so long.
Have been wanting to write since Chinese New year eve...
to talk of the things that i've noticed... and sudden revealations
that speaks of culture and beliefs.

So much time has passed since then and i've been on the go since then too.
It was pretty much a holiday mood then but things picked up and i've
moved along at it's pace.

Finally too... also learnt to accept things. Realised that certain things are not meant
to be. A longing still remains, but it's not one that desires anymore... just one that
hopes things will be well. That we'll be able to joke and talk like before.... or perhaps
that's going to be impossible.

We all write for many reasons.... a burden within wanting to seek expression.
A longing to be heard or a desire to share our views... still it takes a stiring in the soul
and heart... to be able to want to blurt out things one normally wouldn't say to others.

What am i doing now. Just staring at my tut for tomorrow, trying perhaps to understand it
before i sleep. Yet in my mind a restless burden exists... always there. Is it waiting to be
resolved...? Or does it just need more time before it decided to slip into the inner depths
of my memory only to come back when i'm old.

CNY.... visitings... dinners... school... projects... events.... those are the things that's just passed.
And now i'm just typing here... feeling weary.

Maybe not so much from things i've done... in fact they make me feel alive in a way.
But still weary... why....?
I'm beginning to believe that a good night's sleep will slove things.
And it does.... but yet things creap in slowly as the day progresses and it's sometimes just
back to square one whether you like it or not.
Hahah...
oh well... a tired man's mumblings never does seem coherent does it.
Well just let me mumble somemore... maybe when i look at this
some time later... i'll be amazed that i've even writen all these.