Lighthouse

aiyee.. how to blog in here one.. where's this post going to end up at...

Huh?
Do i just blog like this?

~ Numa Numa ~

Click here for see the numa numa video.
Hilarious :)

~ Machine that tells the future ? ~

This link here will bring you to the article.
But in short, its about a black box that's able to be 'manipulated'
by the collective consciousness of human minds.
Pretty interesting read.

And yes... i'm having exams next week til 23rd.
woo hoo. Ain't this exciting.
haha

~ Another one of those crazy weekends ~

In a lack of my forsight, i didn't anticipate that this week would be
the one where 2 reports would be due, including one presentation.
So i happily went to sign up for the round island run organised by NTU
for it's 50th aniversary and also the SMRT challenge on sun.

The run was actually quite interesting, due to the fact that i felt like i was
part of a big event, however the short run of 3km from macritchi to thomson
didn't realli qualify for anything. Felt that it's quiet messy in a way and it's pretty hard to run with so many people walking about. Whatever... at least there's still the goodie bag :)

However, comparing that goodie bag to the one given by the SMRT challenge,
haha... ya. I didn't expect so much from them. But it's nice, and i guess one can probably
see it in the way that, SMRT, is giving back to the society. :)


See the 2 bags and a teeshirt? It's kinda a consolation to our team as we didn't
manage to win the top 3 places or any lucky draw prizes. :<
Yupz, there's the 3 of us, having fun riding on the train the whole day
from Yew Tee -> Bukit Pangjang -> Chinese Garden -> Cityhall ->
Sommerset -> Novena -> CHANGI AIRPORT....

Changi Airport.. that's our big mistake.
And this is the clue that got us flying of to the airport, which actually cost
us quite some time. Reading this carefully again, one would notice the transfer being italicised... but then again, would anyone actually
think of the airport or tenah merah interchange on the first try?
Then it's off from there to tampinese -> Yishun (bus) -> Woodlands (End)
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Scene back at the starting/end point. And that's the end of a pretty tiring day.
Still it's a fun experience. NEXT YEAR. we'll be back :)

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Other pics

Babies and more babies! Where are they coming from?


One of the many cute babies seen around in church.
But this one belongs to robin.

Yj's cute little nephew, but think he's much more chubbier now.
I think babies look so cute when they're yawning.
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Something i took while driving back along the stretch of sin ming industrial
estate a few weeks back. A herby look alike and not only that but there
were other cars there that were really nice, but all too dark to be taken down.





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This here is a picture taken from australia. Was taken with my phone, as my batteries
went flat on me while i was in the zoo there. Currently this is the bird feeding time.
And i was being surrounded by lorrikeets and i had to put on a cap cos they
would even perch themselves on the head and their claws are pretty sharp.
Also not to mention that they poo once u've fed them enough.



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~ My first official interview ~

Haha.. as said.. well it was fun. But well.. in the end talked alot of other stuff.
Cos the guy interviewing was a senior from my course. Way senior.
Anyway, after the interview, found that actually, tyco's IT auditing job
might not be a bad thing to do.
They get to travel alot and to help optimise the different it business systems
and work together with the finance side pretty closely. So in a way it's one area
i could go into if i can't go into research next time. Haha..
Anyway i did mention that i would want to go into research next time, so i guess
they might not want me as why would they want someone who isn't going to stay
on next time. Heh.

Anyway, i had a silly time of photo taking after that. Pretty fun.
Went to the lib for the wrong reasons too. muahah.

Oh yah, was something freeky, i saw a taxi door close by itself, at first
i thought that there was a passenger inside but when i looked closely i only
saw the driver... please tell me it's a new tech that comfort taxis are now
coming with automated doors.
Else i dunno what close that door. hahah...

~ A day with CSS ~

Been playing around with CSS commands for the past hours
or so. Pretty neat. Gives you that much more options to play
around with the design.
Anyway, think this looks nicer. haha.. now i've only left with
the design.

~ Give up... ~

Argh... think shall not bother with any new layouts and stuff.
Haha.. Only just make me stop writing.
Then again... what do i want to write about.
Ha.. so many thoughts once again.
Think i'm sliding down this stream of thoughts once again,
have to be more discerning of what to follow.

Shan't let the things of the past happen again.
Perhaps it's time to learn some mind tricks to keep thoughts
at bay.

Anyway Happy teacher's day. Be you a teacher in school... trainee..
tuition... mentor... rem this day. That maybe it's in all our roles to be
teachers. To teach and pass down the things of today.

lalala. (why are ppl putting this as their nick these days?)

~ One day in east point...(still not the thing that's coming up)~

The day started out with an early wake up call.
Brought about by the loud blasting sound of class 95.
Irritating... thought i was immuned to the hifi's alarm
but i guess i set it too loud the night before.

Anyway guess it works. So i had to drag myself outta bed.
Dad was making hotdogs for breakfast. Yummy.
Even had mustard sauce. Then it was down to east point.

ToTs (Touch of the Hearts) event was being held there,
and i was relegated to do ticket selling... the whole day. Argh.
But well i guess God is good and even though i started off
not really liking it, it felt satisfying after a while. Sorta got into
the rythmn.

And i also sorta became like a robot... repeating,
"hello sir...we're from ntu.. and we're here on behalf of singapore
club rainbow, an organization that gives support to children with
chronic illness such as cancer and heart problems..."

Dohz... anyway although rejections were aplenty, there were still
rather generous souls around who just bought 5 tickets which is
10 bucks from me. And that makes a happy me. But the bottom line
is, i managed to sell finish the 2 booklets. :)

But as i was asking around, there was this uncle, he said he has been
giving so much to charity already and then he started talking about
singapore dying. Like there's no more hope and that the government
is taking up all the lucurative jobs. And gave the example of NTUC going
into the funeral business. Then he said to me, that if there's a chance, to
leave singapore for it's really very hard to live here.

Well that's a thought to think about. I used to think like that too. But then again
after going for my holiday in australia. I've learnt that i would want to see the world
and travel but then again, there's still nothing like home. The place where you grew up
in. Even though things may be getting tougher here... i guess it's really up to our
generation to start making the plans and the changes to ensure that we
have a livable place here.

Sounds politically correct huh... but i guess that's what i feel. No matter what kinds of
stories there are going on about the behinds of the govt. But then, i might want to live
out my retirement age elsewhere.... haha... thinking too far ahead. Might change my
thinking along the way.

Blah.. .too tired... still got tut tom morn...argh...
signing off.

~ Beep. I'm still alive... ~

Gees. This place stinks of cobwebs and dead insects.
Think i've neglected to write anything of worth for too long.
Anyway will be working on stm...
Haha.. so for those who're interested, do stay tuned.
If not you can just presume this as dead. Muahaha..
I just luvv, when the term start... busyness knows no end.

~ Memoires of a 6610i ~

As days go by the time to plug in with the
main computer draws near.
Ole 6610i has just undergone a major
upgrade and resetted to it's infant stages.
Leaving me with space for pictures and things
for viewing pleasure.


Took this while waiting at a junction at Lor Ah Soo,
Looked like some tutu car from far...


Up close, I realised that it's a bike for people
on wheelchair.


Yes, another one of my car taking escapades.
Found this blue baby at the carpark in can a.
Yesh... another collection to my rx8 family.
muahahah


A pretty nice sunset pic. Too bad the phone
can't really capture the full brilliance of it.
As i stood there taking this, I was really in awe
of the colors in the sky.


Took this while at the first night of the PCK musical.
That would be 100605. Anyway it's just a floating
mascot of PCK and this guy in black is carrying
him on his back going all over the place.


The back view of PCK. Supposed to be saying
about the musical.

Anyway, about hte musical... i must say...
it's just a good attempt. Haha... shouldn't have
expected much, but still don't feel it's that spectecular
or anything as the story is really cheezy.
*... mmm... cheeze.... yummy... *

Ok, besides that, the in door stadium was way
too big to house such a muscial. People at the sides and sitting
higher up can't see the faces and expressions.

But at least i realised that the Margaret (Tan Keng Hua?) and
Gurmit can sing quite well. I had this feeling that if Gurmit wasn't
trying so hard to act stupid in his pck personality, the show would
have been much better. But then, it wouldn't be pck then would it?

Lastly, at the end they had this video with different people wishing
PCK happy birthday. Appearently there's this big rainbow there
blocking the top part of the screen and all i could see was the bodies.
Sad.

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

~ A mirror, I see ~

Oh young one, why do you try so hard,
To grasp at fleeting strains of ribbons
To seek so much of a fleeting moment,
Where you thought you knew.

Then you learn to walk and run,
Yet you still lean on to your past,
Finding comfort fingering fleeting ribbons,
Just enjoying your fleeting moments.

Then you fall and you know hurt,
Growing weary of that fleeting moment,
Wanting to hold on to that ribbon,
Learning to tie and secure.

Now the path is still dark and long,
Yet time has made the dark easy to bear,
One day you'll hold on firmly,
Someday, you'll understand.

~ Chinese World Book Fair...? ~

So here i am, stall keeper for a day. Yes, only just for a day.
Spent 11 hrs standing and looking at strangers looking at books.
Guess what, i'm in the chinese section. With a malaysian company,
that's selling taiwan and china books.

Gees, that doesn't bode so well for a "kan-tang" ( potatoe ) like me.
Filled with so many books that look so interesting but i can't recognise so
many of the words. But i'm glad i'm still able to converse in chinese,
or else i'm really just a white mash potatoe.

Oh yea, let me mention about this good offer. There's books on cooking and
they're going for $4 and $6 for a small or big book. If you buy 3, it'll be $10 and
$15 respectively.

But what's so special about these cooking books? For one they teach you how to make
Dian Xin and BAOS! Also got one on desert! YUMMY. In fact, all the while i was there
i got soooo hungry just looking at the pictures. All look so apettizing! Then there's this
book that teaches you on 35 egg dishes, and another is diff ways of cooking rice, and
there's even those on noodles and pasta! haha... too bad... i couldn't even recognise some
of the ingredients... think i need to bring a dictionary along if i ever want to cook chinese
dishes.

Anyway if there's anyone interested in cooking, and want to try their hand at chinese
crusine, the fair's on til this sunday 10pm. Look out for CITE publishers near the back of
the hall.

And oh, they even have these sex books there, haha so funny... cos when i turn.. it's all words.
ARGH. But funnily, they seemed to have incorporated english words in to the books.
Makes me wonder if they were actually translated from english in the first place.
Then there's this 3 books, each teaching on different things, first one foreplay and all the kissing
techniques and stuff, then another on orgasms and the last on positions.
Haha.. all so interesting, at least they have some english words that i can recognise.
And the pictures they draw are so funny.

Ok time to go... psycho paper on next wed... been reading, but seems like it's not enough.
Still got so much more to read. Time to mug once again...
hopefully 3-4 days is enough for me to prepare for this. Hope to get a B so that i can continue
taking other psychology subs and get a minor.

~ I am the MUFFIN man ~

Ever watched shrek 2? Remember the muffin man?
Yeap, today i felt like i was one. Baking my own creation.
Was at louiss' house today with vio to make muffins! Haha.
Was fun. And we used hersheys choc chips to make faces in
them.

Had so many ideas then, we put in milo for a seperate batch
and then it's like it occured to us that we could also put coffee,
banana, orange... blueberry.... nuts... etc etc. Suddenly the thought
of being able to cook or bake is just so enjoyable. Too bad i ain't
got an oven at home. Or i could just try out some of the diff
combinations :)

Oh yeah, went to orchard to collect my phone today. After sending
it for a repair and upgrade. Not bad, they changed my screen and keypad.
But i had to wait like 1 hour plus just to collect. Argh. Soooo many ppl there.
Luckily i managed to psycho louis to accompany me or i'll be really bored.

And guess what... I saw sooo many sch kids around. So i just came to a conclusion
that it's their school holidays. And my sis confirmed it when i returned home.

Nothing much otherwise...
Wonder why i'm writing now.
Guess it's cos i'm trying to get some thing out.

The next level a person can ever go in writing is to be able to
truely write out his personal thoughts and issues that are tugging
at his heart. Only when able to, i guess it'll be another stage of growth.

How convicted is one of his own life purpose such that he can
speak of it convincingly. Or is one never ever really sure but only trying.
Woe is he who keeps quiet, and blessed will be the one who speaks up
and tries. Failing will only serve to teach and guide. To help them grow.

I'm glad some of those i know are able to speak up on their beliefs.
God has used them and they've decided to take up the call.
I still struggle with how to respond but what's really holding me back.
What more and how long more do i want to wait...

I'm glad i'm having little or no emotional attachments to anyone.
Nothing much left to hold me back. Able to forge forward and see things
a little clearer. Although whatever we do may still have an impact on others,
But i think i've not much links left to hold me back.

Where shall i go from here hence forth. It's a journey still and i fear only
to repeat a cycle. Perhaps i need to pluck myself up and be thrown into
the other side of the planet to find out my answer. One's need for survival
does open the eyes of the heart and soul.

Ya da ya da. Head is aching. Throbbing still. Hope these thoughts will take
a more solid place within the mind that i hope i can still call mine. That the neruons
within will find their rightful connections and some sudden burst of inspiration
whether from my mind or from the Holy Spirit will guide me on my next course
of action.

Sleep Date: 280505 0352
Signing out.

~ Of the weeks past ~

Quite far into the holidays already... 3 weeks. Time seems to pass really
quickly these days.

Haven't been writing. Guess it's mental block. Or maybe just plain laziness.
Been tired. Travelling can be really tiring, esp when your journey takes you
close to 2 hours 1 way. Made a resolution, to stay in hall all the way.
Travelling to school everyday will kill me. Especially if it involves more then
1 830 lesson a week.

Been going back to school almost everyday, due to me trying to be hero and take
a GE and also to be my project. Taking psychology and learning about how the mind
works and there's dentrites, synapses, meylin sheeths... ya.. all those biological terms
to tell how the neurons in the brain works. Also had a topic on sex and sexuality.
Interesting :p. And from what my tutor said, it seems there's be a module just on that
in the coming months time. How interesting can that be! haha.

Been wondering, how hard it is to start writing too... it's like the mind is like an engjne,
the longer you don't use it the harder it is to start up. Perhaps that's true also for our minds
when it comes to writing. Or maybe it's just that we do not have enough issues to write on.
Whatever it is... I just had an interesting thought and that is if before some exams or studying
if we could come up with a mind program to just kick start our engines, perhaps studying or
learning might be more effective.

On another note, I've been looking at lots of kids and babies recently. And it's partly due
to me travelling more. I see parents carrying their childen, and then i'll be looking at their
kids. I wonder what the parents would be thinking.

"... What is it guy doing staring at my kid..."
"... Oh my child is so bothersome ... "
"... Why is my child making so much noise and attracting so much attention..."

Anyway for me as an onlooker, it does seem like children and babies are pretty interesting
and 'appealing' in a way. But when it comes to having your own.... it bring about another
kind of burden that'll just seem to drain your life away. Looking at some parents and the
way they look at their child, it seems like they know they're doing their duty as parents
but somehow it's like their lost and irritated at the same time.
Can't really blame them if they're almost always kept up all night trying to tend to the baby.

Which brings me to my next point and that is of people of our generation. I tend to hear
most of my friends and other people say that they'll never want to have kids. Even in the
media, in Desperate Housewives, Gabbe is so against having a baby for fear it'll cause her to
lose her current lifestyle.

We all seek self satifaction these days, we fear losing the comforts we have now. Sometimes
even fearing the responsibilities that we'll have to take on. Then how can we grow as a person
if we're only willing to just stay to our old ways. But i guess that's just the problem we'll all
face at one point in our lives.

How then can we be proper role models to the young or even know how to take care of them
properly. Do we even try to run away from the duty of having to care for the young and use
the excuse of having to work and bring busy to push the duty to maids or teachers?
Is this the cause of us not having a proper role model or mentor in our lives during our
growing years? Have we been left alone and only taught to fend for ourselves... is this the kind
of circumstance that most of us have been growing up in...? I wonder... Will this be a cycle that
will cause the degeneration of familes.

Thinking back of the past when familes were close knit and perhaps even in kampung days.
Parents were always around and even though if some weren't so good at parenting, the family
grew together. And there was always someone there for the youngsters to look up to and to
learn from. Even if i were to wander off to the times of the dark ages, is it not true that the
young had to choose the trade they wanted to be in and bring themselves under mentorship
of masters of the trades. Seems like that was how things worked in the past.

Coming back to the present and comparing, i think we just lack someone to look up to and
follow. We lack a certain mentor or teacher to take us in as a disciple. We may have our teachers
but they come and go all too soon. Perhaps the education system should have be such that
primary school teachers should follow the class all the way from pri 1 to 6. Maybe that way
there might be a sense of recognition and better understanding between the students and
teachers.

Oh gosh... it's 315... no wonder i'm seeming to be writing off track. Ideas flowing in and out.
Nothing solid forming. But it's a good work out for my mind. Been a long time since i've written
this way. Hopefully i'll be able to think clearer if i get more sleep.
Sigh... 830 tom... wonder if i can wake up.
Eyes droopy, Eyeballs strained, mind shutting down.

In this quiet of the night, I hear nothing
I see lights on, only a few and I see green patchs on tv screens across the block
Probably watching soccer matches.

In this night there are...
People tired, catching up with sleep.
People amidst in their merry making.
People working, wishing time would move faster.
People surfing, and chatting.
People doing of things in the dark.
People just like me probably blogging...
People who are just far away, in a dreamland
where they might feel relieved of their everyday problems.

~ Spirit : Stallion Of Cimarron ~

Lyrics - Bryan Adams---Here I Am
Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true

It's a new world - it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day - it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you

Here I am
Here we are - we've just begun
And after all this time - our time has come
Ya here we are - still goin' strong
Right here in the place where we belong

[Chorus]
Here I am - next to you
And suddenly the world is all brand new
Here I am - where I'm gonna stay
Now there's nothin standin in our way
Here I am - this is me

~ Tiredness and the Night ~

Where's the words...
I wonder why ...
I feel why...
I am why...
why...
y...

AM i Y?
Y am I
Y is me.
Y Y ...

~ Lalaa... 205... Digital Communication...~

Been up since morning.. wait.. more like 11am.
Ok.. so my plan to wake at 9 plus to study has failed.
But surprisingly.. i'm at some mental peak today...
still feel rather fresh... even though i've been up for the past...
hmmm 18 hrs? Haha...

Darm... brain is swarming ... think the freq in my brain is now
quite fast... or i would be feeling quite tired...
But why.... why am i still up. it's 4 am now !
Argh...
I needa sleep...
Wed's my paper and i dunno if i can handle it or not..
hmmm
oh well... focus concentrate.... strive ahead.
Can't let things around distract me.... nothing worth..
It's good to learn to harden your heart... to charge ahead.
Gives u a sense of purpose... but one shouldn't ever take pride in that
for God can easily take it away.
But it does help to ease certain pains ....

Sleep sleep... let's go to sleep. How many owls are awake.
I wonder....
how many people are panicking...
How many slugging it thorough...
How many are forcing themselves ahead...
How many trying to forget things...
.... If man could hear the voices of the night.
I think he would hear many many secrets, desires and cries...

Zzzzzz.

~ Another earthquake... ~

Seems like disasters come aplenty these days...
Does it come to everyone's minds what all these means?
Or do we just simply dismiss it as something that happens all
the time and doesn't concern 'me'.

Maybe we've all got too much to think about..
but anyway, just an interesting nugget,
was talking to my dad this morning and he touched
on how the oil prices were going up and how this
caused Keppel's stock prices to go up as it seems like
they've recieved lots of orders for their oil rigs and stuff
like that.

He was complaning that just last year the forcasters said that
they're shares were only worth $2++ and now it's at ard $11++.
But anyway, seems like the rise in oil price is causing people to go
out looking for more wells to drill. Probably found some new oil wells too...

Then my dad said that probably all this drilling into the earth,
and sucking out the oil is causing all these earthquakes.
Which might be true... if considering that diggers do not check if the
site they're drilling is near the edge of a 'plate'.

But just think about it... if there's so much oil being taken out,
wouldn't that leave lots of empty spaces? If they were to cave in,
would that not cause certain disruptions to the earth's crust?
I mean i'm sure the earth is trying to balance itself out too right?

Anyway just a ponder... back to mugging...
:(

~ Another week gone... ~

Can't believe i'm having exams next week...
Still not prepared. And still not focused.

Now i'm home... should've stayed in school.
Why....
Opened wounds earlier this week...
got the call i wanted... heard what i needed.

Been making up balloons and letting them pop
from me since then.

Gotta move on.
Saw interesting cars again. Took them down.
Shall put them up when i've got more.

Can't seem to find the right words these days.

Been moving on my path more tryingly...
Met up with old camp mates...

Shan't be tied down no more...
Gotta focus... gotta cross this hurdle.
Can't afford to stop.

Burdens coming in...
roles and responsiblities, trying to wear them.
Trying to help out where i can.

Still i'm home...
It's raining now.
I should be studying...
But i drifted away to a land of anime.

Coming back to reality now.
Wasted 5 hours.
Still can't get digital comunication formulas in my head.
Can i force open my mind tomorrow...

Open the sleepyiness that's hanging over me.

Shall try again tomorrow.
Whatever it is... it's still good to be home.

~ And so the quest continues... ~

Just another day of days. The man with the 6610i has gone on a
rampage once again. With the trusty phone in pocket and the eyes of
an eagle. He swoops down on unsuspecting victims and captures them
for the viewing interest of those who care.


This here is a silvia. And wow... i like it's red sheen.
Taken near NBS again! Man that place is packed full
of cool cars.


Look at those wheel rims... shining white. And
look at those curves...haha.. well can't beat
the lambo but still this silvia deserves a second look.


Check out the spoiler, a rather nice fit i would
say and i guess it must have come together as
a set when bought.


And look who i saw again, Mr RX7. Still at the
NBS. Still looking good.. and rather small compared
to all the other cars. And oh, if u can't see it, there's
actually bird shit on the rear bumber there.


Ok enough of cars, this here is a bike... yes a bike.
I don't know the name or model but it looks good
anyway.


Here the back view. And yah, it's taken at Hall 4's
carpark.


For those who can't recognise, this is actually
a view from the 2nd lvl of NIE lib. The place where
i've been hanging out for the past week and probably
for the weeks to come.


It's a rather serene place with lots of greenery and
has a very claming atmosphere just right for studying.
And oh, if you were to notice the picture, that SBS bus there
actually is not moving. And everyday i go to NIE, i would see
a different SBS bus parked there not moving. I wonder if
it's broken down or wat. But after a while when i check back,
the bus just dissapears. I wonder if it got towed away...



Oh and this here is a circuit board. My SC206 module,
lab project. Lots of wirewrapping to be done and I've
completed it 2 weeks ago. When asked to dismentle it...
I couldn't bear to do so... after all the hard work... so i just
took it down for remembrance. And now it's here. :)

~ Ponder wonder... ~

It werid but seems like revealations come at times when u least expect it.
Even when watching shows. But guess that's just the way things are these
days. Us all seeking our truths everywhere. Seeking to be filled with some
worldly wisdom or another.. i guess i shoud know better. Having been seeking
it for since i dunno how long.

Watching desperate housewives, I suddenly realised how people's perception of
life can differ so much. Not that i wasn't aware of it. But it just stuck me so deeply
in a way. That some can treat life so lightly... laughing away at issues and situations
that might otherwise seem so much more severe and serious to others.

Its no wonder why people misunderstand each other at times. Espicially when
you have people laughing at matters that you feel are important. Then how does
one respond...? Some rebutt in anger... some shrink away. Some have mastered the
art of keeping emotions at hold and come up with witty responses to otherwise very
crude remarks.

Also another thing i've noticed thus far... how much we'd like to hold on to things that
have given us hope in our otherwise dampened hearts. Seems like it'll always take some
external stimulus to kick us in our butts to wake us up from our daily drunkedness.
To make us aware that we still have other things to live for... other then self sustinence,
or self pleasure. A need to take away the things that matter to let us see that which really
matters. Things that are close to our hearts.

How many times it's been.. that we sometimes have friends... who are always so cock sure
of themselves, that we hate that cocky and know it all attitude. Of beliefs that they feel will
last them through. How many times usually we'll want to rebuke them. But then, what's the
point of wanting to change someone else's thought processes when it's something very much
internal.

We can't change a person's heart and beliefs until he/she has gone through some situation
that will make them realise certain facts. Maybe the only reason why we want to rebuke them
is to reassure ourselves of our own beliefs that mean so much to us. Meaning we're still insecure
and unsure. Like a little child wanting to be heard.

But the time will come ... when things change and God will put burdens in our hearts.
To realise the err of our ways. That pride, ego, fears, hurts and the such don't mean anything.
To realise a certain desire to grow. To bring ourselves out to be challenged and to just try.
To know that nothing's perfect and that there's no mistake big enough that cannot be rectified.
That forgiveness comes from within the heart... not in the words said.

Ponder wonder... tis a Good friday. A time to rest. And a chance to scribble...
A chance too, to remember Christ's death... and in 3 days time his ressurection.
To remember that we're all saved by grace and that being so, we shouldn't be so harsh
to anyone in our lives.

~ Pictures of surroundings ~

Shots that i took that seemed nice...
too bad i only had my cam phone.
So the quality is quite bad.


But anyway, this here was found at N4 of North Spine,
i was walking past to my labs when i saw a tree so pink.
Kinda reminded me of how sakuras in japan might look like.
It really does add color to the surrounding.


Then just behind it is a tree is white bloom. From the picture
you can't see it clearly, but it's actually very white and it
really contrasts the pink tree that's in front of it.


This here was taken during the vertical marathorn
'dry-run'. At the 51st storey of Temasek Towers.
Went up and managed to get quite a good
view of the surroundings. Think that's Keppel Harbour
in the pic.


Another view of the port/harbour. More to the right.


This here is taken facing the city, China town is just
to the left of this picture.


This picture was during the actually day of
vert mag itself. We had to stay over at the tower
and just before dawn. I managed to get a good
view of the horizon from the top.


Must say it's rather beautiful and the pictures
here can't do it any justice. But hope it gives
the idea.

~CARS!!!! :)
Below are some of my stalks out of cars.
They all look much better when u see them
up close. Don't know why they just don't turn
out well here. heh.


RX 7, Found at the NBS carpark. Veri low and
small in size compared to the other cars parked
around it.


The interior view. Doubt you can see much from
here. But the seats are red and the steering wheel
looks quite cool to hold.


Mazda Rx8 - Found at Carpark in CAN a.
White/Grey. Could only get the back shot.
As taking from the front was too dark.


RX8- Found at NBS carpark. This i must say
looks real good. If only i could get my hands on
to the steering wheels and take it for a spin.


The rear view of the Black RX8, notice that
it's car plate is 8888. Now how's that for
an auspicious number. Must be some rich kid
or maybe even a lecturer holding the keys
to this baby.


BMW MX3, sports convertible. one of the cooler
cars i've seen so far. Saw at DDB design company
where i went to do a survey.


The front view.... looks nice right. :)
I really like it's big 'nostirls'. Haha.

~ Thought Processes ~

1) Certain Images or places triggers off certain thought processes within us.
2) It may remind us of the past, and it can also trigger off emotions within us.
3) We may remember things that we've long forgotten.
4) Our mind has 4 states, and one state is our sub consciousness.

In the sub conscious state, we don't know what we know, there're things that
we've learnt and know that is just lying dormant in our minds.
Sometimes images and events can trigger off the thoughts that are swimming
in our sub consciousness. Skills, memories, knowledge... etc.
Now then... what if we were able to have a large library of collected images,
events and sounds... and able to project it in to the mind..., out of all those things
that will be rushing past our senses. Would it eventually awake something in us?
I wonder.

~ Been so long ~

So long, so long. This has been empty for so long.
Have been wanting to write since Chinese New year eve...
to talk of the things that i've noticed... and sudden revealations
that speaks of culture and beliefs.

So much time has passed since then and i've been on the go since then too.
It was pretty much a holiday mood then but things picked up and i've
moved along at it's pace.

Finally too... also learnt to accept things. Realised that certain things are not meant
to be. A longing still remains, but it's not one that desires anymore... just one that
hopes things will be well. That we'll be able to joke and talk like before.... or perhaps
that's going to be impossible.

We all write for many reasons.... a burden within wanting to seek expression.
A longing to be heard or a desire to share our views... still it takes a stiring in the soul
and heart... to be able to want to blurt out things one normally wouldn't say to others.

What am i doing now. Just staring at my tut for tomorrow, trying perhaps to understand it
before i sleep. Yet in my mind a restless burden exists... always there. Is it waiting to be
resolved...? Or does it just need more time before it decided to slip into the inner depths
of my memory only to come back when i'm old.

CNY.... visitings... dinners... school... projects... events.... those are the things that's just passed.
And now i'm just typing here... feeling weary.

Maybe not so much from things i've done... in fact they make me feel alive in a way.
But still weary... why....?
I'm beginning to believe that a good night's sleep will slove things.
And it does.... but yet things creap in slowly as the day progresses and it's sometimes just
back to square one whether you like it or not.
Hahah...
oh well... a tired man's mumblings never does seem coherent does it.
Well just let me mumble somemore... maybe when i look at this
some time later... i'll be amazed that i've even writen all these.

~ I wonder ~

I wonder why,
Why the heart can feel so much
That it hurts so deep,
Yet nothing flows out.

I wonder whether,
Whether if the heart is capabable
Of feeling so much by itself.
Or is it but a by product of an interaction.

I wonder how,
Even though the feeling lingers deep,
The facade still is able to keep up.
Life does go on as usual.

I wonder once more,
How this feeling can be so strong,
That it can spur one on to do many things.
Yet also so easy to turn from sadness to anger.

I wonder how again,
How it's so easy to bluff oneself to go on.
And yet so easy to fall again for the past.
Even then the anger can't last.

I'll wonder ...
Would avoidance be better.
Not knowing if she hears or knows.
Perhaps things are best left without any intervention

~ Simple Pleasures ~

Been meaning to put this down for a while now.
But the last time i did, blogspot didn't post it and
i was too lazy to retype....

Anyway... just wanna write of food...
Of food taken when in the cold mornings or when you're
starving.

I remember the times when i was schooling... i would have the
occasional steamed 'siew mais'. Made by my parents... even though
they were frozen food bought from the supermarket. They still
tasted heavenly... perhaps what i was tasting then was but their love
and willingness to prepare a meal so early....

Of times when i was straving... a McChicken comes to mind...
I remeber a time past when i was cycling and got caught in the rain with
Noah. We were around the east coast area and decided to take shelter outiside
a Mac. Bought a McChicken and woa... it was steaming! Was the best burger i ever had.

But there's also an incident with instant noodles... while i was out field in brunei.
Almost everyday was raining and a hot steaming meal of noodles was like heavenly food
in that dark wet forest... Can't believe that noodles can bring so much joy.... :)

Lastly... one of my fav now... which i call a 'heart warming' food.... is cup of CORN!
Yupz... esp found in pasar malams... yummy!

Yeah... wonder how many ppl have their fav foods... and how much it'll seem to
cheer them up.
It's but these little things... that sometimes makes life a little more bearable at times.
To bring a smile to the heart.

~ Dreams ~

Had a real weird one today...
felt so real and left me feeling more drained when i woke.

Thinking thru it.... it's like a dream of things lost.
Of things that mattered and once again they came together.
It gave me a thrill and somehow i just felt like i wanted to be
in the dream and not wake up....

Funny how... when i did... i was lost. A feeling a deep dread and loss.
Felt many things that i shouldn't have...
maybe it's but the surfacing of unresolved issues...
I wonder...

Luckily... i managed to do some cleaning up in the house...
though the dream and the issues it brought up kept clinging
to my mind. I'm able to come back slowly... to reality.

How weird a sunday it has been....

~ A minute to remember ~

I remember a time not too long ago,
Where a burning fire churned within.
Telling me of many things i could do,
in this world.

I remember then, how i was spurred on
By this sensation within, telling me to go on.
It was but a personal battle within,
Fuelled by glorious deeds done by images.

I remember then, when i cycled down the road.
Cars rushing past, rain splattering on the face.
Friends behind and the heat that kept away the chill.
The thrill of being alive, and not having full control.

Childish dreams seem to move one to push much further,
til reality sets in and you know the fears.
But beyond that, once you grow and overcome,
The thrills become calculated and you relive the past, sometimes.

I remember the fire not too long ago,
And i felt it again not too long ago.
It may be my mind playing tricks, but i felt it nontheless.
I'll keep fanning it, for now i know i'm choosing the rock.
To build myself upon it until if it deems me not worthy.

~ A minute to indulge ~

You looked for it, and yearned for it.
Thought you could be without it.
But always kept looking for it.
You were just such a fool.

Thought you were above it,
Yet you were always within it.
When you stopped searching.
It found you.

You questioned it, yet enjoying it.
You went beyond and perhaps lost it.
You still couldn't fully understand it.
But you tried to embrace it.

When you finally made a decision in the heart.
It said good bye, and it's for the best.
Yet now, that decision stays.
Knowing logic says one thing, yet...

The words said good friends,
Wonder why it hurts so.
You should've known.
You asked for it, you thought too far ahead.

Growing to be much too dependent...
I wonder why you didn't see it earlier.
I wonder why, it's so easy to say those words.
I wonder if, there was anything to begin with.

Step by step...
Hoping to be released once again,
But hoping still, to be chained down.
You are so ironic.

~ Finally my mousie pictures. ~

Ahhh. Finally.. about 1 week plus after my DDP.
Managed to upload my pictures of the micro mouse that i was working on.


*Click on pictures for full size*

Our completed mousie... lots of 'hair' sticking out.


Dear mousie's 'eyes', lights up whenever he sees black lines.


See the white thing over there? That's our crystal oscillator.
It was silver at first, then we gave it a nice wrap of tape.
Gave me lots of headache figuring how to make it work.


The sensors. The black ones emmit Infra-red and the purple ones detect.


The belly of our mousie, messy ain't it...looks like intestines all over the place.



A man made out of wire... done in times of lostness. :)


The team that i spent my holidays working with.
Nice bunch. And that's my partner in orange.