~ And so it begins ... ~

Gee, so fast and the last week of the hols has passed in the blink of the moment.
All the orientation camps have come to a close and what's left is lots of recuperation
for many. 
Still don't feel like school is starting. Feels like it's the holidays still. Sigh, i feel like i felt
when i've just orded. Heh. What the heck. Back to square one. And so the cycle of mugging
continues once again, making the smart smarter and the lazy ones... skip lectures. :)

Monday, the new day of the week, got up early, felt excited... yeah. Gonna be going to school
from home. Doesn't seem that bad. Quite alright i should say... could get used to it, if i ain't
staying in the hall. Anyway, guess what. I was early for the lecture this sem. Not bad i should
say, but sad enough, the lecturer probably thought that it was still the holidays too. Or maybe
he just had a rough night with his wife the previous night. He came just 10 mins before the
lecture ended and just gave us a brief intro. That's so nice of him.. to still remember us,
when he could've just left us waiting and let us all rot or leave for home which we've just left
more then an hour plus ago...

Mmmm... MACs has finally arrived into NTU. Dunno why but it just feels good. Gives the
place something "fast", or maybe it's cos it's an MNC... giving the canteen an international feel?
I dun really care much about it cos no matter what, eating it everyday's gonna cost a bomb.
But it gives this air of excitement and i dunno colours up the place a little? Gives canteen A
a brighter feel i guess? Maybe the colours really do affect the human moods...

Books books... as usual, there's a book fair just outside the canteen. Lots of old books for sale.
Programming books... computer books... story books.. etc etc... why couldn't i find a good and
more updated java book for 9 bucks, like i did last sem? Hmm hope i'll find something to
reference myself to and make me feel more secured... haha.

Monday afternoon... lectures ended. Went to collect my hall keys. Asked Kk to go try asking
the hall office again if he had gotten a hall. Didn't know the 3rd round results were out...
Not bad, he got it. Guess what, we're in the same room again. haha, must be fated :) And there i
was, thinking in my head how i should start introing myself to my new roommate.

Mon nite, Tues evening, all spent cleaning up this new room. Not bad i should say. At least
there's 2 fans and the lights are brighter. However a certain problem seems to be the infestion
of mozzies... gonna have to get lots of mozzie coils. Damn... or maybe i should just get those
electronic types. Buzz away mozzies!

Gonna move in soon. yea... back to surfing the lan, back to late nights, back to mugging and
drowning. Back to climbing hills, back to communal living. Back to the ways i've left behind
3 months ago. Somehow i've missed it yet somehow i'm too lazy to go back into it. I wonder
why... has home grown on me already? Heh. I wonder....
Oh well.. gotta wake up early tom... gotta catch the early ride so i can move my stuff in,
looking forward to this new sem. Hope it's better... hope i get luck. :)

~ 7 days and 6 nights ~
 
Well finally back from the sports camp. It was a 7 days of self entertainment
and chalet time for me. Haha.  Luckliy i had friends with me there doing
the welfare thing or else i would be so damn sian.
 
Watching people having fun was quite interesting at first, then the cheers sounded
rather funny. Then it got abit irritating... then it stuck in my head... and then i would
subconciously say it when we woke up to get breakfast in the mornings. Haha.. damn
stupid cheers. I think another 1 day or 2 days more and it should get out of my mind.
 
Well, one thing i've learnt, if you're looking to have fun, never join the supporting commitees of any camps. You'll only end up waiting and doing lots of sai kang. Not very nice if you're not getting enough rest too. :(
 
But anyway still had fun staying over at Chester's with jie and hz. Makes doing things together more fun and easier too. (Imagine waking up at 6 by yourself everyday while sleeping at 1-2am, don't think i could've woken up myself.. haha) Took turns driving "xiao lan", (our own ISUZU ELF 150 CUSTOM lorry, heh), shiok man, just love the feeling of driving big vehicles, think i've lost touch of cars already.
 
Anyway think this year's freshies seem a little more onz, they played and cheered so much longer that we had to wait for them to finish before we could leave on sun. Good for them but bad for us as we were like waiting and waiting only... hate that feeling. Esp when we're not playing along. :p
 
Was greeted with a spectacular sight while walking home yesterday over the senkang/punggol flyover. Saw the setting sun, with red wispy clouds, white blue and orangey skies blending together. Also cars with head lights already turned on. It was quite a sight, a real pity i didn't have my olympus...

~ Alluring Night ~

Standing by the window,
The Neighbourhood gazing back,
Peacful quietness, all sound asleep,
Aullure of past nights, wafting past.

Wondering of the boy that once was.
Was so enticed by the darkness of this stillborn.
Of things naughty and fun done.
Of past deeds of fond memories that once were.

Alas this stillborn, is not the natural way.
For the body was not meant to move in the night.
Wise sayings come ringing, now knowing why.
Still, life gained, in a different way.

Desires of the heart calling strong,
Calling hard, pulling the strings now taut,
Playing a tune so mellow...
Per chance hoping for one to hear, to share.

Funny how, this allure changes.
The mind and heart, from a rejoycing sun'd morn.
Funny how , as i've learnt from the Lord,
Just as soon follow the world, my own sense.

More will see this allure, more will follow,
Yet more know to avoid, embracing the dawn.
Yet this heart readily curls to this stillness...
crying.

~ Ramblings ... ~

He who walks
Walks tall and wide.
But that is not to be,
For he would be brought down soon enough.

To fall is so easy,
Though painful sometimes.
Might be hard to get up,
Some prefering to crawl.

Hands are abundant,
Willing to pull,
But pride plays a curtain
Blinding the soul sometimes.

To he who has slithered,
Down the dark slopes.
Wandering on fours, wondering what's wrong.
He knows joy when grace lifts him up.

But he who walks tall,
Walk knowingly, humbly,
Lest he falls like the others.
For he who walks, falls before.

How long more,
Is the way clear?
When will he walk again?

~Confessions of a broken mind~

Pain used to be something to overcome.
It used to be a challenge.
Still is.
But now, even in dreams.

Comfort is supposed to be synonymous with rest.
But it ain't the case no more,
Tiredness is a lesser burden,
Compared to feeling alive.

Anguish and bitterness came,
Was stuck in rage's cage.
Yet all the while seeming to be in the light.
Hopelessly covering the cracks in the walls.

Hope came, hope healed.
For a while there was purpose.
It got better, but complacency took over.
Then stopped and things got worse.

Now it's slowly coming back,
Not as intense, but creeping, lingering.
At the back, down the back, driving me nuts.
But it's different from before.

Tried to serve, to give my life,
But Inner self and desires always lay dorment,
Even without intensity, the mind is a watchful leopard.
So lust overcomes and without much thought, relents.

Pain as punishment is better, compared to coming from nowhere at all.
We may all need our own pain's to keep us in check.
For I thought of this while in one...

Trying out the past

Saw this page on old radio shows. Found it rather
funny. And if anyone would like to hear how old radio
was like you can pop over to radiolovers.

Also decided to change the music to a clip
of the "The 20th Aniversary Banquet". Also found on that site.
Haha... can leave my page open to hear the whole show.
Lasts about 25 mins.
Hope it doesn't irritate the hell out of anyone. :p

A morning long overdued...

Guess it's started. Was wondering when it would happen.
This well's starting to dry up.
Words don't seem to flow like they used to.
Maybe the novelty is starting to dry off.

Perhaps all i had was just snippets to write.
Bits of ideas left from the jungle of my thoughts.
Nothing concrete, nothing tangible.
Just pure bubbles floating about, waiting to pop.

Ah, that just about sums up how i've been trying
to get to updating this page. But guess the past week
has been kinda busy. And now that laziness has got to
me i guess i just kinda put it off even more.
Well it's time to set things straight. :)

Let's see... i left off with ... ya white sandy beaches
and clear blue seas. Guess what. I really did. Was totally
amazed. Clear waters, colourful fishes. And fun with a bunch
of guys. Got some pics up at webshots if anyone's interested :)

Time spend with the guys were great, and it just reminds me
of the times of bonding we used to have back at camp. Don't really
know how to describe it but, being with them i'm just being me,
and i can be as silly as i like. :p At the same time, i feel a little
more bold, lending some of their strengths and personality. Also
knowing well that although we may not see each other most of the time,
I can always count on them when i need to. :)

Anyway, last week was also the last day of work for me, had this
outing to saeke sushi to kinda celebrate. Ate til i wanted to burst
and that stupid HW still want to fill me with wasabi. At least he suffered
together with me! MUahhahah.

Saw this interesting article yesterday in the straits times,
about some web comic, drawn and conceptualized by singaporeans.
Not a bad effort i must say. Here's the links:

Anema
Bobbin
Slackers
Comixpedia