~ Reason? ~

Seems like i've changed. Yet again i haven't, maybe only reverting back to my old self.
There were things i've learnt in the army that made me see things clearer and knew how
to cherish, how i miss those things. I try to want it back but yet it seems like it's not
within my understanding anymore. Perhaps i've to take a journey to once again regain it...
Or perhaps it's just an unstable soul that lack security.

Things are much more complicated outside in the world as they say, how true it is after i've
left the army. Had lots of opportunities and experiences. Got hurt and burnt once, twice...
Perhaps that's why i've changed... to be more wary, guarded... to know that trust is given
easily... but hard to mend. To know to mingle the ways of society, yet not completely given
into it... always a step back to have a clearer view...

I still seek the same things as i did then, in the past, even when young. Yet somehow things
are different now. I wonder why. A friend perhaps feels that i've left him or let him down.
Seems like our past is important..... which reminded me of how much i used to treasure
memories and experiences...

Yet people do leave, people do change. So wat can we do..? Just make best use of the moment
i guess. Enjoy it while it lasts... for you never know how long you can stay happy and smiling.

We change, our focus change... yet we might still desire the same things as before.
Yet somehow things are differnt. Opinions are formed and actions seems not to work anymore.
The soul gets distant too. Then again... perhaps there never was anything real
to start with, for one who never really opens up. Then again, perhaps this dog hasn't changed
at all...