Feeling of dread and confusion today.
Feeling of sadness at the same time free.
Free from the bondage of the fears of my mind.

Sad at the lose of things to come.
Of bonds to further strengthen over the years...
Of the times that were to come,
Of times that were meant to be shared when greyed.

I'll serve a longer sentence probably,
sad, yet relieved. That i do not have to think of
what ifs anymore. Of needless struggles with my
mind.

Anyway, sometimes it's with the people that you
aren't the closest with that you enjoy the most.
For to be with those you know who ignores you,
it hurts.

Anyway the message board seems to be up ... but damn
why izzt blank.... oh blanko... damn it...
oh well.. another day.